If I could stop time....

Our home is quiet and has turned in for the evening. Jacob is soundly sleeping in the nursery and Mia is tucked into the crook of her Daddy's arms and dreaming away. As I walk around the house turning down the lights and getting ready to turn in for the evening I do a final check on Mia and Jacob. I look at them so safe and not a fear in their world and my heart is overwhelmed by how much I love them. I know these moments are fleeting and things that I think I could never forget I know I will. I want time to stand still, I want to cherish every waking second with them and press into my heart and mind every detail of their new life.

When Mia wakes up in the morning she plays with her feet and hands. She turns onto her back and quietly talks to herself and stretches out. As soon as she see's us over her crib she kicks her legs so enthusiastically ready to start this new day. She has such a whisper of a voice in the morning, her own little communication to Mommy and Daddy. I love the way she sits on the floor and watches us walk around the room, taking everything in.... she doesnt miss a thing! She reaches her arms out for us to pick her up when she is done playing and wraps her arms around my neck sometimes reaching to stroke my hair and sometimes just to pull herself closer to Mommy. When she see's Jacob coming, crawling across the floor towards her she lets out the most beautiful "shriek" of laughter. I know that I have lived for these moments.

My sweet Jacob wakes up talking. I call him my little turtle. If somehow he has made it into Mommy and Daddys bed he pops his head up like a little turtle and calls out Dadadadadadadada. He then pushes his head into my chest and rests there for awhile more. He has always slept with his mouth open letting his sweet baby breath warm my skin. As soon as I pick him up he jumps with excitement, so excited for the new adventure he will find today. He is so busy exploring each room that he won't drink his bottle right away...too many things to get into and explore. Once his worship music comes on though he stops what he's doing, moves towards his bouncy seat and is ready to drink his bottle. The other day he saw me sitting at the counter and he crawled over and pulled himself up on my seat so that I could reach down and pick him up. I was overwhelmed with joy, my baby boy came to me, wanting me to hold him. Of course our children always want us to hold them but that first time that they crawl over to you, showing you that they want you, reaching up their arms is overwhelming for this new mommy.
My heart overflows with love for them. I'm reminded that when I take the time to sit at the feet of my heavenly Father His heart does the same. It overflows with love, compassion and joy. When my babies do something new my heart swells with pride for them I'm so proud of their accomplishments and milestones...and so is God over me. I cherish this gift of life He has given me, His precious children to watch over, to teach, to bless and most importantly to show them God in me, through me and around me. Afterall I'm just a steward of what is His. My desire is that they would see every aspect of Jesus through me, that I would be a light to them, daily surrendering myself at the cross and letting Jesus fill me each day with His plan and purpose for their life.

This is what it is all about, this is what our Father meant when He called us to live life to the fullest, live life in abundance.

Thank you Lord for this precious gift you have given me in Jacob and Mia. May I make every moment count and every lesson enriched with your spirit. Let your light shine through me as I hold them and cherish them so that they would know you through me. As you mold their minds, personalities and talents for your purpose I pray that I could stand still the hands of time for these moments are fleeting.